Tiresome week!!!

OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! ACCP training going to be end soon. Just few more days. My feeling?? Sad + stress.. Sad bcoz we're not together anymore. Everyone will take their on road. Don't know when we will meet again.T______T But stress is more strong than sad. Bcoz of the OJT placement. Still 1 more week and only 3 had confirmed their OJT. The others?? Masih terawang-awang. Tiada hala tuju. Adding more stress when we just know that we need to pay back our scholarship for 70% if we got late placement. WTH?? Izzit our fault?? And why don't they stated this conditions earlier in our agreement? It's ridiculous!!

Actually all of us, attended some interview this week. And it was arranged by our principal 'MADAM'. The rules is when you got the placement, you can't attend any other interview to give others the chances. Then, after 4-5 interviews (if I'm not mistaken), 11 of us got the placement but still not confirmed yet. We are officially confirmed when we receive the offer letter or sign the agreement with the company. But still, we are very happy. At least, masih nampak sinar cahaya tuk masa depan..ahaks~

And I'm not sure if I'm lucky or not (referring to what happened today), I got the placement with the other 4 members. And of course we are happy until this morning....This morning, (u know today is public holiday ok), sacrificed so many things, we went to the office at Cheras. With hope, we got 'something' as the output. At least the confirmation from them. 5 of us meet at Masjid Jamek station and took the STAR to Bandar Tasik Selatan. We waited for a bus there to get to Jalan Bandar Permaisuri 2. After waiting for 15 minutes, the bus arrived and we got into the bus. But after a while, we realized something was wrong. That bus drove to Sg. Besi?? Alamak!!! We got the wrong bus!! And it's already 9 am. Actually, we promise our 'MADAM' to get there by 8.30. But at 9am, we were still in the wrong bus. Are we going to get fired, before we signed the contract?? OMG!! Masing2 dah risau + cuak.. Naseb company tu x jauh pun dari stesen lrt. So, by 9.15am, we managed to get there. And the 'unlucky things' keep following us. We arrived in front of the office, but nobody there. The door was locked and no light was open. Seriously, it was like in Prison Break but I don't know which season we are o_O. After waiting for a while, (waiting again) someone came and open the door. Fuh!! lega.. But that guy was a little bit shocked to see us there. Then he asked us to wait for Mr. Eric(the boss) inside the office while he call Eric. (And again and again, we are waiting~~) After 1 one hour waiting, we're getting tired. Ronnie da tido da. Bahie baca novel. Aku, Dayah and Madi da kebosanan. Apsal la si Eric botak ni x sampai2 lagi? Dia x tau ke kitorg nk datang? Ke dia lupa? Then, after 1 and half hour, he arrived. And he told us that, 'Actually saya x suruh pun kamu datang sini, tp 'Madam' kamu yg suruh'. WTH??? And he also surprised dgn kedatangan kami. Siapakah yg harus dipersalahkan?? Adakah ini semua salah faham?? But, untuk tak mengecikkan hati kitorg yg dah tunggu lame, dia bagi la briefing sket2. After 5 minutes, the session ended. Dan kami disuruh balik and disuruh tunggu email dari dorg.. And 1 more time, WTH?? Apakah kedatangan kami sia2 belaka?? We are waiting for so long, and it just ended like that. No input and output. And our status still not confirmed yet. And all of us feels so down. KUCIWA!!! Lebih menggelapkan harapan, when Eric botak called one of us to get back to their office, and giving her a task. Only her. Izzit maksud tersiratnye adalah, the rest of us was rejected? OMG!! Can anybody explain to us what is going on?? I was so angry and frustrated. Please confirm our status ok!! And stop giving us the false hope!! Are you responsible to pay back our scholarship? Oh man! It's not 100 or 2.. More than 10k ok.. Please say earlier if we are rejected. Senang kami prepare resume baru. Ni x..Sabow je la..grrrr

Actually this morning, I promised wif sum other friends, to 'ronggeng' together. But after all these happened, sape yg ade mood nak jalan kan. Utk lepaskan tension + kekecewaan, kami pegi makan. Ikutkan hati nak balik terus je. Tapi disebabkan I made 'promised' by myself, so, aku ngan Dayah pegi jgk la KLCC. Meet Hanis, Leha, Sha and Aini there. Meluahkan kemarahan and ketensenan..T___T. And oso, we watched movies. 'X-Men Origins: Wolverine'. Cerita dia sgt besh. My Daniel Henney was there, in the movie..lolz

Kepada sesiapa yg blum tgok, this movie recommended. Rate: 4 stars^^

After watching movies, we met Azwan, Mekti and Hawa. Skali lagi meluahkan kekecewaan yg ntah untuk ke berapa kali. After makan2 and jalan2, aku ngan Dayah kembali ke pangkal jalan. Mane lagi, balik umah la. In the train, I asked Dayah. What about our future? Ntahla. Seems dark again. Dan untuk ke berapa ratus kali, kami mengeluh lagi.. Sampai je rumah badan, otak dan minda x dapat berfungsi. Ape lagi nk buat, tido je la kami..ZZZzzz

I'm going to update soon if I get the status. And for now (the time I'm typing these words), I'm still feeling down. Please give me 'semangat' and pray for me... This is just a beginning of my new life..