April 17, 2011

Take Care of My Girlfriend Chapter 21

Chapter 21 : Hyuna’s Plan

Hyuna walked out of the elevator and headed toward the President’s office. Her footsteps dragging on the carpet floor of the Cube Building, a feeling of dread that is too familiar came up in her stomach and she tried her best to ignore it.

Her mind traveled back to what happened earlier in Beast’s dorm, how Kikwang had asked Junhyung to withdraw for Beast-- all because of her. It was something that she couldn’t let happen, especially when the whole situation ultimately was her fault. No matter how she rolled the dice it all came back to her. If she had been honest with everyone, honest with herself in the first place, none of this would have happened and none of them would have been put in this situation.

She finally reached the door of the office and reached for the doorknob. She was dreading what she was about to do. Her members were really going to be angry at her and she doesn’t blame them. She turned the doorknob and was surprised to find it locked. She peeked inside the window and found the office to be dark.

“Hyuna? What are you doing?” she turned around to find the manager looking at her strangely.

“Oh I was looking for the President. I need to talk to him about something important.”

“The President is on vacation. He won’t be back until the day after tomorrow. Sorry Hyuna. Was it important? Maybe I can help.” Hyuna shook her head.

“No. it’s fine. I’ll just wait until he gets back. Thanks.” she started to head back.

“Are you alright Hyuna? Are you sure I can’t help you?” the manager asked, concerned about Hyuna. Hyuna shook her head and then walked away. I’m going to leave Cube and no one can know about it yet.


Gayoon threw her phone on her bed in anger. She had plans to meet up with Yoseob for dinner tonight but he seemed to drop off the face of the earth. She must have called him a hundred times but all those calls just went straight to voicemail. Seriously, where the hell was he? She was not a patient person and when she finds out where Yoseob is, she is going to throw him to the wall. Well not really since Yoseob always had a way to calm her anger down.

Suddenly her phone rang and she jumped to answer it, thinking it was Yoseob.

“HELLO??!!” her face went from anticipation to disappointment when she realized that it wasn’t Yoseob calling her, instead it was Hyungseung. “Oh hi.” She hoped he wouldn’t notice the disappointment.

“Dinner? Um. Sure. Ok see you then.” she hung up the phone and sighed sadly. It seemed like Yoseob wouldn’t be accompanying her to dinner and Hyungseung did ask her to dinner. She had been spending too much time with Yoseob lately and completely ignoring Hyungseung. Not that she owed him anything. They weren’t even dating, for god’s sake. And lately the more she thought about it, she saw herself with Yoseob more. She didn’t know when all these feelings for the blond boy came from or how it was so possible for her to feel so much for the boy in such a short amount of time. Maybe the feelings have always been there, buried deep within her and spending time with Yoseob sparked those feelings to come out.

All she knew for sure was that she didn’t want to be in a love triangle. She did NOT want what Hyuna, Kikwang and Junhyung have. It was too much trouble for her and she was a simple girl.

She sighed to herself and checked her phone once more and finally giving in to her desire to call Yoseob one more time in a futile attempt before heading to the bathroom to get ready for dinner.


Yoseob checked his phone again and sighed. It was literally killing him to ignore Gayoon’s calls. He checked the clock one more time. Six o’ clock. The time he was supposed to meet her for dinner. He felt like a jerk, just ditching her like this but he knew it was necessary. Beast is already in a huge mess with Junhyung and Kikwang and he didn’t need to be adding to it.

Doojoon was taking this really hard, trying to think of any way to fix it. But that was Doojoon, always blaming himself for things that are out of his control. Hopefully Jihyun would be able to help him. She always knew how to make him feel better and Yoseob was thankful for that and for her.

His phone rang again and Gayoon’s name flashed across the screen. He groaned loudly and finally decided to turn the phone off. He headed into the living room, which was now deserted after what had taken place earlier. Kikwang and Junhyung had disappeared off the face of the earth after their confrontation, Doojoon was with Jihyun and Dongwoon went to visit Sohyun. So all that was left in the dorm was him and……..

“Hey.” he jumped slightly at the voice and patted his chest to calm himself down.

“Hey hyung. Where are you going?” Hyungseung was putting on his jacket and Yoseob wondered where he was headed out to.

“I’m having dinner with Gayoon. I just really need to get out of here after what happened…. you know.” Yoseob nodded awkwardly. So Gayoon was having dinner with Hyungseung tonight. He didn’t know how he felt about that but he forced himself to be ok with it.

“Have fun.” he said softly and went back inside the bedroom. He laid down on his bed and cuddled his teddy bear. Everything was such a mess right now and he only hoped things would get better, for everyone.


Doojoon closed his eyes in comfort in the arms of his beautiful girlfriend. Seriously, this was the only place where he felt calm--where he could pretend everything was alright, even just for a moment. Jihyun stroked his hair softly, each stroke filled with love and concern for the stressed out leader. Doojoon had told her everything and her heart broke for him.

“It will be alright.” she whispered and Doojoon clenched his hold on her tighter, as if his life depended on it.

“I don’t know what we’re going to do. I mean Junhyung withdrawing? It’s unthinkable.” Doojoon said.

“Maybe Kikwang will change his mind. Maybe he said it out of anger and wasn’t thinking straight.”

“You didn’t see the anger in Kikwang’s eyes. I’ve known him since JYP and I’ve never seen him this angry. I don’t think he’ll change his mind anytime soon. He made it clear that he didn’t want to be in the same group as Junhyung and gave Junhyung until the end of the week to withdraw.”

“It’s still a few days away. You never know what’s going to happen.”

“Junhyung is going to withdraw Jihyun. He’s that type of person. He’s beating himself over what happened and he’s going to do whatever it takes to make it better. Even if it means leaving Beast. Damn it! How the hell did everything get here?”

“It’s a really screwed up situation but please Doojoon, don’t hate Hyuna.” Jihyun pleaded. She would hate for Hyuna to be misunderstood in the whole situation. After all, everyone involved was trying to do what they thought was right at the time, not seeing the tangled mess they were making. But still Hyuna was still her member, her little sister and it was only her natural instinct as the leader and an unnie to protect Hyuna.

“I’m not mad at Hyuna. I don’t think anyone is. Not me, not any of the members, not Junhyung and not even Kikwang. They both love her too much to be angry with her. But you know who’s going to be mad at her?” Jihyun shook her head.

“Herself.” Doojoon answered. “When she finds out about everything, she’s the one that is going to be the hardest on herself. And Jihyun, you should help her out.”

Jihyun nodded. “I understand.”

“I’m sorry I’m releasing all my baggage to you. I’m probably adding to your stress aren’t I?” Jihyun shook her head fervously.

“Oppa, I love you. Your problems are my problems too. I’m here to listen.” Doojoon kissed Jihyun’s hair, breathing deeply.

“I love you too.”


Hyuna opened the door to her dorm and found Doojoon and Jihyun in an embrace on the couch. She didn’t want to disturb them and didn’t want them to see her. She knew that Jihyun would be able to tell in an instant that something was wrong with Hyuna and she wasn’t ready to tell Jihyun the truth. So she tried her best to sneak in to their bedroom.

“Hey.” Jihyun called out and Hyuna cursed quietly at her failed attempt and turned around.

“Hey unnie. Hi oppa.” Doojoon smiled back at her then exchanged a few glances with Jihyun. Hyuna knew exactly what they were doing. They were trying to decide whether or not they should tell her about Junhyung leaving Beast. Finally she saw Doojoon take a deep breath.

“Hyuna, we need to tell you something.” Doojoon said and motioned for her to come closer and sit on the couch. She hesitantly walked over and sat down next to them.

“Um, Kikwang and Junhyung….they got in a fight today about…they were in a fight about your relationship.” Doojoon started. “it got pretty heated and um, I just thought you should know that Junhyung is withdrawing from Beast by the end of the week.”

Hyuna sat there, not knowing how to respond. She already knew of this info but Doojoon and Jihyun didn’t know that. They also didn’t know about her plan to stop that from happening by her leaving 4minute and Cube and moving back to her hometown instead. Leaving all this behind…all of it. It was a coward thing to do but honestly, she didn’t know how else to solve this.

She figured that she was the reason why everything is such a mess and if she wasn’t here, things would go back to normal. Her members would be hurt that she left but she knew they’ll be alright…eventually. Kikwang will eventually forgive Junhyung and they both can forget about her and take over the k-pop industry together as Beast. And her? Well, she left once before so she already knows how it felt and how to handle it. She can handle it. Junhyung can’t.

Then she realized that Doojoon and Jihyun were staring at her, waiting for her reaction. So she just stared at them, feigning shock and horror. “I’m sorry.” Doojoon said, rubbing her arms in comfort while Jihyun just watched her, with a strange and curious look on her face.

“Oh my god.” she replied. “I can’t believe it.”

“Hyuna-ah, are you ok?” Jihyun asked, her eyebrows furrowed. Hyuna shook her head. “Why don’t you go get some rest? You look like you could use it.” Jihyun motioned for Hyuna to the bedroom. Hyuna stood up and went inside their bedroom, happy to be getting away from Jihyun’s prying gaze.

“That was strange.” Doojoon said, confused about Hyuna’s reaction or more appropriately, her lack of reaction. He was expecting her to cry, whine and run out the dorm, trying to lock Junhyung and Kikwang in a room so they both can’t leave. But the strangely calm Hyuna was a bizarre and unexpected sight. Her attempt to look shocked was transparent.

“She’s up to something.” Jihyun said, simply. “I know her and she’s planning something. There is no way she would have just taken that kind of news that lightly, especially since it involves Junhyung.”

“You think so?” Jihyun nodded confidently.

“I’m positive. I think she already found out about it. That means she probably already came up with a way to stop it too. The question is how is she planning on stopping it?”

“You don’t think she’s going to ask Kikwang to make Junhyung stay, do you?” Doojoon asked, panic rising in him a little. Hyuna with a plan usually means trouble, especially because she’s still young and very rash in her decisions.

“I don’t know. I don’t know what she’s going to do.” Jihyun answered, clueless about how to get everyone out of this situation, Beast and 4minute intact.


Gayoon took another bite of her salad and almost gagged. She hated being on a diet but she was determined to lose weight by the time of their comeback. She has been having chicken for lunch/dinner everyday for over a month. She missed food. Junk food.

“Are you ok?” Hyungseung asked, looking up from his steak. Gayoon looked at his steak longingly, wanting to just lunge across the table and ravish the steak whole. She nodded sadly.

“I hate salad.” she admitted and Hyungseung chuckled.

“But it’s good for you. Didn’t you say you wanted to lose weight?” Hyungseung asked.

“Yeah but it’s so hard.” she complained, eyeing his steak once again.

“Well who said it was going to be easy. Just eat the salad. It’s not that bad.” Gayoon pouted, a little anger boiling inside of her. Yoseob would not have reacted like this. He would have comforted her, and maybe even cut of a piece of steak for her.

”It’s just a piece of steak. A little piece. It’s not going to ruin your diet. Beside you’re already beautiful, I don’t even know why you’re on a diet anyway.” Gayoon imagined Yoseob saying.

“Are you thinking about something?” Hyungseung asked, putting his phone down. Gayoon looked at his cellphone. He had been on it all night, texting someone.

“No. I’m not.” Gayoon answered. “So what is the rest of the guys doing tonight?”

“You didn’t hear?”

“Hear what?” Gayoon asked, now full of curiosity since Hyungseung’s face suddenly went serious. “What’s wrong?”

“Junhyung and Kikwang had a fight today. Kikwang caught Junhyung kissing Hyuna and he asked Junhyung to withdraw from Beast.” Gayoon’s mouth gaped in shock.

“Kikwang wasn’t serious right? I mean, I’m sure that was just said in the spur of the moment.” Gayoon was now full of worried, suddenly not hungry anymore.

“I don’t think so. I really think Junhyung is going to leave. Kikwang gave him until the end of the week to leave. And now we don’t know what to do and how to fix it. All we can do is hope Kikwang will change his mind.”

“Wow. That is just…wow.” Gayoon’s thoughts suddenly rushed to her, Yoseob and Hyungseung. She suddenly felt like they were in Junhyung/Hyuna/Kikwang position, just a few steps behind.

She was willing to make the decision just fine. She knew who she liked and she knew perfectly well who she wanted to be with. And if she had any idea how Yoseob feel about her, she was willing to choose between Yoseob and Hyungseung just fine.

Maybe that is what she should do. Find out what are Yoseob’s feelings for her are. She knew she wasn’t imagining how he felt towards her, he had feelings for her. She was sure of it. At least, she hoped he did. She needed to talk to him. ASAP.

“Um, do you mind if we cut the dinner short? I have to go somewhere really important.” Gayoon said. Hyungseung thought that it was because Gayoon wanted to see Hyuna so he agreed.

“Sure. I’ll get the check right now.” Hyungseung signaled the waiter over and paid the check.

The two headed out of the restaurant and headed back home.

“Thanks for the ride and thanks for the dinner.” Gayoon said as she got out of the van. Hyungseung just smiled and nodded. “No problem.”

“I’ll see you later. Um, are you going straight home?” Hyunseung shook his head.

“No, I’m gonna stop by somewhere for a while.” Gayoon waved goodbye and headed back into her dorms.

She took out her phone and called Yoseob again. And once again, he didn’t pick up. She was getting impatient with him now. She needed to talk to him and get this matter out right now. She decided to just go to Beast’s dorm right there and then and talk it out with him.

She hugged her jacket tighter to her body and headed to Beast’s dorm.

“Mom. I love you. Thanks for understanding and supporting me all the time.” Hyuna cried into her phone. “Looks like I’ll be home for your birthday after all.” she hung up her phone and looked around the room. The room that she shared with 4minute, her best friends in the world. A tear slid down her face as she thought about leaving them. She didn’t even know how she was going to tell them.

But as soon as President Lee comes back from his vacation, she’s officially going to leave Cube and go back to Busan. Of course, she was going to use her stomach problem as an excuse. That way she knew that no one will be asking her extensive questions on her sudden desire to leave.


Gayoon knocked on the door several times and was met with no answer. Luckily, she knew Beast’s security code. She typed it in and opened the door quietly. She entered the dorm and saw that it was completely empty. It was chilly and cold and super quiet. The atmosphere felt like there was a cold war that just happened.

She looked around and found no one. She was disappointed and turned back to leave when she suddenly heard noises coming from the bedroom. She walked closer and listened at the door.

“Gosh, Yoseob. Just call her man!! Yes. Call her…NO! Urgh!!” she heard his voice. She knocked and opened the bedroom door and found Yoseob lying on his bed with the phone in his hands.

“GAYOON!!” Yoseob immediately got up and climbed down the bunkbed stair. “What are you doing here?”

Gayoon actually lost her voice for a while. She had heard him contemplation whether or not he should call her. “I called you a million times you know.” she said when she finally got her voice back.

Yoseob looked down and nodded. “Yeah. I know.”

“Why didn’t you pick up? Were you really that annoyed by me?” Yoseob immediately shook his head fervously.

“NO! that’s not the reason.”

“Then why didn’t you pick up my calls? And why did you ditch me tonight?” Gayoon wanted answers and she wanted them now. Yoseob avoided her eyes and sat down on one of the beds. Gayoon walked over and took a seat of the bed next to him.

“Yoseob, just tell me the truth.” Yoseob finally met her eyes and smiled sadly.

“I don’t know. I just had a lot to think about.”
“About what?”

“About us. You, me, Hyungseung. The problem with Hyuna, Kikwang and Junhyung. What Kikwang said earlier. Just everything.”

“What did Kikwang say?” Yoseob’s mind flashed back to the encounter with Kikwang earlier and how Kikwang said that Yoseob was backstabbing Hyungseung. Just that look in Kikwang’s eyes shook him so hard and he knew he couldn’t bare to see the same look in Hyungseung’s eyes. That cold glare was chilling.

“He said…he said that I was backstabbing Hyungseung.” Yoseob finally said. Gayoon was taken aback. She knew that Yoseob was sensitive and he regarded his friendship as most important above everything else.

“But Kikwang’s wrong.” Gayoon replied. “You’re not backstabbing anyone. Look, I know there is a problem right now with Beast but Kikwang and Junhyung’s situation is completely different from ours. Hyuna and Kikwang are dating. I’m not dating Hyungseung.”

“But still, he likes you.”

“The question is do you?” Gayoon asked straight out, staring straight into Yoseob’s eyes.


Hyuna zipped the bag and pushed it underneath their bunk beds. She packed most of her stuff already and hid all the bags under the beds. That way the other won’t be too suspicious. With her items mostly packed, not to the point where things would be obvious, Hyuna walked outside the bedroom. She looked around to find her dorms empty, her alone in the house.

She decided to take a walk and go to the park, one of her favorite places that she has to leave behind soon. She put on her jacket to shield herself from the cold and headed out the dorm.

The night was so beautiful. It was cold but there was hint of spring coming soon. She finally arrived at the park and headed straight for the swings. Ever since she came to Seoul when she was in JYP, this was her favorite place to come to. Whenever the stress of training or the stress of being an idol got to be too much, coming to the park and just swinging drove her troubles away. And she was hoping it would be the same tonight.

However, as soon as she got there the sight of someone already sitting on the swing, just idly swinging made her froze in her steps. She immediately knew who it was and knew that her troubles weren’t going away tonight.

She was deciding whether to turn around and just leave when the person suddenly turned around and spotted her.

“Hyuna.” he said quietly.

“Kikwang!” she breathed out.

End of chapter 21.

End of Chapter Twenty. (Credits to twinkinglibra@4-Minute.com)

April 04, 2011

Take Care of My Girlfriend Chapter 20

Chapter 20 :

The six members of Beast sat down solemly on the floor, Kikwang sitting farthest away from Junhyung with Doojoon and Dongwoon in the middle, ready to intervene in case of any physical altercation. Yoseob was sitting, facing his back to the wall, still reeling from Kikwang’s comment.

He had been talking to Gayoon more lately and had been spending more time with her. But he didn’t even realize how much until Kikwang had pointed it out. And now he felt so guilty because Kikwang was right. Hyungseung liked Gayoon and Yoseob knew that. He had been trying to ignore that whenever he was with Gayoon, relishing in the fact that Gayoon seemed to like him more or how she never seemed to mention Hyungseung or how she tried to change the subject whenever someone mentions Hyungseung.

But what Kikwang said was a wake up call to him. He looked at the rapper who was sitting, his face filled with unintelligible pain, and he looked at Kikwang who was still fuming in anger. He didn’t want to end up like them, he didn’t want to go through the pain that Junhyung had been going through and he definetly didn’t want Hyungseung to look at him the way Kikwang looked at Junhyung. He decided right then that he needed to stop seeing Gayoon, no matter how platonic it might be, he need to stop talking to her and spend some much time with her.

“So who wants to start?” Doojoon asked but no one looked up. “Fine, then as a leader, I will. We have a problem here guys.”

“Obviously.” Dongwoon said but quieted down when Doojoon glared at him, signaling that now was not the time to joke around.

“It’s simple Doojoon.” Kikwang spoke up. “Junhyung kissed my girlfriend. He screwed up. He’s a douche bag who is a backstabber. Simple as that.”

“Kikwang!” Doojoon intercepted. “I know you’re angry but come on.”

“I’m a little more than angry. She is my girlfriend Hyung. He knew how I felt about her. I asked him for permission before I asked her out and he agreed. He was too big of a chicken to ask her out himself and when I’m dating her, he went after her. I’ve been keeping this in for too long now!!”

“Calm down Kikwang.” Hyungseung stepped in. “ Actually it’s our fault. Me and Doojoon are the hyungs and we knew about this a long time ago. We should have done something and helped you guys solve this problem out earlier. Don’t be mad at him Kikwang. Be mad at me.”

“Stop.” Junhyung finally spoke out. “It’s no one’s fault but my own. I was the one who screwed up here. I was the one who kissed Hyuna, I was the one who was still pining for her after I knew her and Kikwang was dating. Kikwang, you should punch me again.”

Junhyung stood up and opened his arms, waiting for Kikwang to punch him. Kikwang stood up also, clenched his fist.

“Kikwang!” Doojoon yelled out but Kikwang swung his arms anyway. Junhyung closed his eyes, getting ready for the impact that Kikwang’s fist was going to make with his face. But the punch never came. He slowly opened his eyes to find Kikwang’s arms by his side and him breathing harshly.

“You’re not worth it.” Kikwang said softly, heading for the door.

“Then what can I do to make it better?” Junhyung yelled out, stopping Kikwang. “Come on, just tell me what I can do to make things right? Do you want me to never talk to Hyuna again? What? There has to be something that I can do.” Junhyung begged

“There’s nothing you can do to make things right. that’s the thing about screwing things up. You can’t ever fix it.”

“Come on!” Junhyung begged. “I’ll do anything to make it better. There has to be something.”

Suddenly Kikwang stopped walking and turned around. “You want to make it better?”

Junhyung nodded. He had been beating himself up about this. He wanted to make it all better. He loved Hyuna but he also loved Kikwang. This time he would really give up Hyuna, completely let her go just like how he intended to the first time.

“Fine, you want to make it better. Then get out.” Kikwang stated.

Junhyung was surprised as were the rest of the members. “What?” Doojoon asked, wanting to make sure if he heard Kikwang right.

“You heard me. Get out. Get out of Beast. Withdraw. That’s the only thing you can do to make things better.”

“Kikwang,man you don’t mean that.” Hyungseung stated. Doojoon and the rest were too much in shock to say anything.

“Hell yeah. I meant that. You heard me Junhyung. You have until the end of the week to withdraw from Beast. I can’t be in the same group as a backstabbing coward like you. You got that?” Kikwang challenged.

Junhyung slowly nodded, agreeing to Kikwang’s term. “I’m really sorry and I meant that. I get it, you can’t forgive me so if you want me to leave Beast, then I will. I’ll tell President Lee that I’ll be leaving.” Junhyung said, heading toward their room to pack. “But do me a favor, don’t tell Hyuna that you ask me to leave. Don’t tell her anything at all.”

Junhyung headed inside their room and shut the door. The rest of the members just stood there, wondering how they could make things better and trying to find any way to fix it. How are they going to survive without Junhyung?

Outside their dorms stood Hyuna, who heard everything that went down with the six Beasts. She held the paper tightly in her hands, her hands that was now trembling from shock and pain. She had been there to show Junhyung her tattoo design but never had she ever expected to run into something this horrible.

She felt horrible knowing that the guys were fighting over this matter, pushing the blame onto themselves. When the truth is that it was all her fault. She was the one who had been so confused about her feelings, who had been stringing both of these guys around just because she couldn’t make a decision. Actually she knew who her heart belongs to a long time ago but she didn’t do anything about it. And now the two guys she cared the most for in the world is hurting because of her.

She wiped her falling tears and headed back to her dorms. Junhyung was withdrawing from Beast? That was something Hyuna couldn’t let happen. Not especially since she knew how it felt leaving, how painful it was. She wouldn’t let that happen to Junhyung. She knew what she had to do. She was going to make things right, once and for all.

All she can hope is that her members can forgive her for what she was about to do.

End of Chapter Twenty. (Credits to twinkinglibra@4-Minute.com)