How scary the world indeed! Be strong Jay!!!

Jay^^

All my friends already know how much I love Kpop Music. I usually dun write about what happened in Kpop world inside my blog. Because it's too much to write and it's too tiring. But, since this controversy just happen to Jay and I'm still not over it, I want to give my opinions since this case leave a deep mark in my heart.

If u ask me which Kpop Idol I like, my first answer is absolutely FT Island. And if I had to choose 5 group among hundreds, I will choose these group. FT Island, 2PM, Super Junior, SS501 & DBSK. Or maybe plus minus 2 more group? Cho Shin Sung and Big Bang. (Such a greedy girl..ngee)

But, I bet this year is not really a good year for them.

#FT Island - Won Bin leaves the group because of personal view/taste of music. *Brokenhearted*

#DBSK - 3 members file lawsuit against their company because of dissatisfaction of their salary. What will happened next? Is it will end up with someone leaves the group also?T.T

#2PM - Jay quits as a leader of 2PM and leaves the group because of stupid judgements made by netizens. *Even more brokenhearted*

#SS501 - Hyun the leader was dignosed swine flu few days ago. Please get well soon Hyun!

--updated--

#Super Junior - Kangin accused for beating someone but he claimed it as self-defensed. After investigation, he assured fan for not being guilty. After everything cooling down, Kangin suddenly heat up the situation with hit-and-run incident.haish..What are u doing Kangin??

--Jay controversy--

4 years ago (before he debut as a singer), Jay had made comments on his MySpace saying something like "Korea is gay. I hate Korean." And those anti-fans had dig in into his account and make fuss of it. I admit it was Jay mistake (because he is a public figure, he should be careful about all things including his past), but he already apologized for many times. But still the netizens don't wan't to forgive him. The outraged protesters demanded that Jay should be forced out of 2PM. That was acceptable bacause maybe they were angry. But WTH with suicide petition? And 3000 peoples sign for it. DAMMIT!!! This is so RIDICULUOS + CRAZY + STUPID. These 3000 f***ing stupid netizens has completely changes my point of view towards them. They has set their standard to the lower of LOWEST level of human being.

And yesterday, Jay calls it quit. Quits from being a leader and quits the group oso. He apologized to his member and his supporters for leaving like this. Another online petition pop up to support Jay and more than 100K (supporters is 34x ganda from the hatrers) supporters sign for it. But still...decision has been made. Jay still leaving. It brokes my heart seeing someone who struggle for 4 years training to fulfill his dream as singer+dancer give up his dream. Hundred fans gathered at the airport, trying to stop him from leaving. They shouting and crying like crazy people not to let him go. But he still leaving. Jay look so weak and sad. He apologized so many times and enter the departure gate. Other members also send him off at the airport, crying like a baby. Wooyoung(one of the member) even fainted and being rushed to the hospital. This is sooo heart wrenching.*Sigh!*T____T

Fans gathered at the airport.

I had teary eyes when WonBin leaves FT Island because I don't even understand the reason of him leaving. And for Jay case, I can't even stop my tears.*Sigh!* I try my best not to cry, because it looks childish+stupid+fool and I'm trying to look cool even when I'm alone. I tell Shar, Jay is leaving. What should I do? I feel like crying. And she said, it's ok even u crying. And my tears really fall that time. I'm usually not like this. Crying over someone who I never met. But it really hurt me seeing such a friendship, love, support from everyone who love Jay. He's leaving not because he want to leave, but, the situation let him leave. Blame me for being so weak. Blame me for 'berhati tisu' (<--perumpamaan lembut+lemah seperti tisu).

Jay keep bowing and apologizing at the airport.*Sigh!*

Support from friends and fellow members. Such as strong and sweet friendship. I hope I have strong friendship like this where we laugh and cry together.

--Boom--

"My heart is hurting very much My heart feels like it’s being torn apart because he is a dongseng (younger brother) that I love Because I believe and love my dongseng I believe that he will return with a better appearance Today my heart is hurting very much Jaebeom, hyung will work harder so that when you return I can protect and hug you with a warmer embrace Please return healthy……… I love you…………….."

--Kwon--

"The first song we practiced together.. We felt nervous and excited.. I always pray. That it won't be such a hard journey.. I believe you will get stronger because you're my brother."

--Junsu--

"Through the wind, fall came. Out of nowhere, the fall scent has arrived.... The bright blue sky It keeps making me cry. Even the sky is making me cry in the fall of 2009."

--Chansung--

"Let's walk together."

--Wooyoung--

"2PM, we're not 7 members. We are One."

And this morning, Jay arrive safely at Seattle. His family and his best friends are waiting for him. Right when he saw his mom, he burst into tears. His mom held him and washed his tears away. Suddenly, I remember a saying, 'God's cannot be everywhere, that's why he creates a mother'. Even at the baggage claim, he kept saying that he was sorry to his parents. He was sorry for his family, leaving his family behind to pursue his dreams. And he's back to his family like this. My eyes got teary all over again. Seeing such a warm love from his parents. And now, I decide to go back to my parent as soon as possible to spent as much as quality time with them.

I hope Jay safe besides his family. That is the best place he should be for now. Our prayer and best hopes always with u Jay. ♥♥♥♥♥

P/S : Thanks Shar for understanding what I'm going through. I know some people don't even know how I feel and dun even want to try to understand how I feel. Even though, I know you don't really know who is Jay, but, having someone by my side that understand how I feel and share the same 'things', I really appreciate it.^^